My Body is Changing {And So Am I}
I have a confession: my body is changing.
In fact, to be completely honest, it has been changing ever since I reached my upper 20s. I think for a while I resisted that because I didn’t want it to change. I didn’t want me to change. I was scared of the change.
While I thought all of the body insecurity stuff was far behind me, a part of me was super envious of the body I had at 18, 20, 23. Yes, my thighs were thick but at least I had my super flat & toned belly to fall back on. That was my “thing.” It makes me sad to look back to my 18-year-old radiant self to a girl who still thought she wasn’t “good enough.”
Now at 29, my tummy is getting much rounder, and I have little belly dimples. I can “squish” my love handles, and my weight fluctuates with the seasons (sometimes up to 10 pounds!) My thighs have — gasp! — cellulite.
I am now slowly but surely learning to be OK with this — embracing the change, but most importantly my body.
While some days are easier than others, I realize I have a choice: hop on the scale and beat myself up OR nourish and love the body I have — in all its many forms.
I choose the latter.
This post was difficult for me to share, but I’m hoping it shines the light for another woman who may need to hear it. You are not your body, and your body is beautiful in all its magical forms. Old me would never be caught dead sharing belly photos on camera or being vulnerable but here I am, taking a stand on body positivity, walking my talk and embracing all of my imperfections.
It’s what makes you beautiful, darling.
xoxo,
Rachel
November 22nd, 2016 at 2:35 pm
LOVE your mindset and approach and admire your openness and transparency on such a sensitive topic. You read my mind more often than not with these posts and I just adore your spirit! xoxo (and you look fantastic now AND then!)